When I think of you, I get that feeling

Sunday, June 26, 2005

i'm being drained.
physically and mentally.
WHY?
why do i feel like that?
why isit that.

i've lost my appetite;
when i'm super hungry.

i cant sleep;
even when i'm dead tired.

i cant focus;
even when it's so important.

i'm cold;
when it's suppose to be very hot.

i've lost even my interest;
no matter how much i used
to like it in the past.

no matter what.

i've tried everything.
sleeping;
talking;
laughing;
dreaming;
singing;
playing;
forcing;
praying;
telling myself;
diverting my attention;
acting as if it din happen.
it's just that. i cant do it.
i'll go madd soon.
i'm really disturbed by what happened.

it's a bad nightmare.
a bad experience.
only kylie will understand.

i'm drained. TOTALLY.
physically and mentally.

find the old me back.
in search-

3:43 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

training yesterday.
wooh. GAMES DAY!
hahaha. was a fight
between LIGHTNING
and thunder.
of course lightning won!
haha. woohoo! lightning rocks!
yayy!!! haha. and cherlene
wet me wif a water bomb!
all her fault. hahahaha.
it's alright. i dont mind getting wet!!
harr. okays. then girls had to
leave earlier. cos we had some other
training elsewhere.
ma'am actually somehow lied?
cos she said what.
was for g.o.h.
[guard of honour]
okay. actually we thought
yayy! ccan be g.o.h.
but. we knew. we were too young
but it was alright tough.
supporting contingent.
still sounds ok. hahaha.
okays. that's the end for yesterday.

today. morning. had tuition.
okays. was SUPER boring.
then afternoon.
recieved a msg. while doing homework
it was from. a guy. he msg me.
started wif a normal msg.
then started slowly become more.
[what's that word. argh. i forgot.]
okays. then asked about what
u miss me not. and sort.
i though was just playing .
then he asked me if wanna be
his gf. so i answered. anything
but then i thought okay. did i do
the right thing. until i called kylie
and told her. she advice me. wow.
she's good. hahaha. then of course
i told him i dun want la.
then he keeps asking.
okay then it was time to be
firm. so he called. i answer.
asked me it. i answered.
no. [with a firm voice]
okay. so yups. then he msged me
after a while. asking if i could
take the joke. of course i said yes la.
i knew it alr. even if he was serious
he would end it this way. so yea.
now he's msging me. ok.
i need kylie or maybe maisarah!! hahah!

6:10 PM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

http://www.mysingtel.com.sg/animation/ani29.php?gameId=ani29

haha. this thing is cute.
i got it from kylie. (=

today is another boring day. harr.
i woke up early today.
haha. kylie's still asleep
now is 12.32pm.
oh wells. i wanna askk her
to go out with me. but
haiyo. nvm.
oh no. i've got muscle aches!!
ppainn!! haha. nvm la.
cos i din excercise for
some time. tmr got training
agn. SIANED.
but it's for the G.O.H
woooo! lalala=) okays.
i'm bored. school's starting
i'm bored. back to being a
BOOKWORM (: haha.

12:35 PM

Monday, June 20, 2005

okays. kylie's back
safe and sound. hahaha.
she has LOTS to tell me
everytime on the phone
she goes:
quick quick i tell u about the
ophir trip wan anot?
then she starts. hahah.
nvm. i wanna hear it too.
then hmms. i heard
that there were
only six girls.
oh wells. haha.
yesterday had the carnival
hmms. was OKAY i say.
a lill boring.
then i think we were the
only games stall? i didnt see others.
nvm. haha. i thought
business was good. but haha.
no it wasnt. we made a loss
total: 10cents. lucky for us.
*phews. and then
pack up. went to the room
cos maybe might have hmms.
a meeting? yurong said.
but in the end nopes.
stayed in the room.
the guys were playing bball.
until mrs gan asked yurong
to go for some meeting.
so left me alone with the guys.
and then they continued playing bball.
haha. very funny
ali baba. can make it.
he really can act as
an AQUA.
good job there ((:
hahaha.
then after a while hmms.
i went home
then yupps. haha.
planning where to go for
father's day. in the end.
we went. to a coffee shop.
oh wells. it's father's choice.
what can i do. lalala
then went to my godparents house.
hmms watched rush hour a lil while.
then was NINE.
haha. got iron ladies.
woah. watched the first part.
then haha. so funny.
left the house. took a
LONG time before reahing home.
miss a lot. some more reach home
my brother playing game.
wth! nvm
soon can watch. woahhh! haha.
the JUNG SO CUTE. =)
if i see the vcd then
i would buy =) the show v cute.
harharr! =) jung v cute as well as chai.
hahahaha.

6:05 PM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

omg. i really miss kylie.
haiyo. days seem to pass
SUPER SLOW.
kylie. kylie. hahaha.

8:23 PM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

today is wednesday.
super boring! haha.
kylie's away. i'm left alone.
wondering what to do next.
hahaha. okay nvm.
she'll be back soon.
i hope. seriously i
don't know when will she be back
it's a 5 day 4 nights thing.
they went off on tuesday.
should be back hmms on saturday?
hopefully. haha. then sunday
go some fair thingy.
maybe she'll make it for that day.
they'll be back safe and sound. haha.
i wonder how are they?
how's the mountain. HAHA.
i'm simply BORED TO TEARS.
just went sentosa yesterday.
came back with CUTS.
OUCH. i see BLOOD!
blood blood and more BLOOD.
SCREAMS- haha. i'm madd.
that group of bengs.
simply [ YUCKS ]
so selfish. rumble v fun meh?
sucks la. oh wadeva! =)
i feel like i'm on sea. haha.
still floating.

1:32 PM

Friday, June 10, 2005

woohoo! second week of holidays.
wow was PACKED. hmms.
monday and tuesday got FOCUS camp
wow. first day was SHIOK!
when we reached there.
it was okok. feeling excited.
then had lectures.hais.
yawnsss~
then was time for FUN!
we did archery. haha.
i'm proded i got none lars.
haha. tthen was HIGH WALL.
hahaha. it was fun and FUNNY too.
haha.hmms then after high wall
we did RAFTING! woooooo!
we had to make a raft
and we named ourselves.
" FINNY!"
haha. cute horr. we won!
haha. first some more. yayyyyy!!!
haha. i'm madd. second day
we did morning PT then
HIGH ELEMENTS. haha.
i did the log one. i did before.
but was woah. scary. was like HIGHH!!!
had to climb long long lars.
my leg shiver alot. okays. nvm. was SHIOK.
lalalala. then had amazing race.
was SUCKY. ok anyways my group was in
bad mood. haha.then we had to clean up
yupps. was rather wet and fun? haha. okok.
yup yup. was great. then wednesday
suppose to go for church camp.
but was too tired. so din go. haha.
went chalet.
yayy and i learnt how to play POOL
so shiok. hahha. =) this week was GREAT!

5:39 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005

*crys!
specs course is FINALLY over.
hais. after FOUR days.
super tired.
sians. i'm like the only girl to get
THIRD sergent.
i was holding back my tears.
then kylie din wanna noe hers
din dare to check la.
then i was acting for her
show her the face like she get third
she v wad leh. haven open then cry alr.
hais. then see her crying i start to cry
and forcing myself to laugh.
hais sians.
i kept trying to hold my tears.
but they keep talking bout
second. HAIYO.
hahaha! i love MAISARAH!
our school's GLORY!
the O.C! [ OUTSTANDING CADET ]
platoon LIGHTING THREE!
she rawks! =) anyways
i just hope sir fauzi can help me
hahaha. anyway. the phrase they say is
[rank is wad u wear. respect is wad u earn.]
self encouragement. sians

11:28 PM